Sigh... that was a long hiatus - it's time to get back to business

I can't even think of an image that will do justice to this post - so there won't be one today. I've been gone for quite a while. This hiatus was not without merit. Before I start - let me put down the highlights of my time away:

1. I decided to move to South Africa
2. We moved to an apartment and put half our stuff in storage
3. A few months later - we shipped all of our belongings ( including our pets) to Cape Town
4. For a few months we lived with my parents 
5. We put our daughter in a Montessori school
6. We're now in our own home and trying to adjust to life here 

Although my fertility battle has been this nagging little monkey in the back of my head, I haven't been able to bring it to the forefront until today. I was due to have another FET cycle in May but I finally admitted that I'm not super woman - and I need to let myself rest. Yet here I am in April, and I'm feeling the itch. It's like that swelling sensation. It's a burning feeling that is telling me  -it's time to get to work trying to make another baby. 

I'll be doing it this time without rosy tinted glasses hiding the realities of TTC behind a pink haze. I know just how difficult this is going to be. I'm also doing this with only one ovary. Given how I lost my other one - I can only hope that I don't get another tumor that will cost me my last one. I know I need to lose about 15 lb before I try to do this. I know I need to start taking metformin again. I haven't geared up the energy to start praying to the porcelain God again. I know that there's so much that I need to do - but today is the first day that I really felt like doing it. 

My daughter deserves a sibling - or maybe two if my body is willing. So I'm going to start my metformin tomorrow. Well glucophage - metformin is more than I can tolerate. I've already started running. Now if I can just give up fruit juice - we'll be back on track.