I cannot begin to describe the magnitude of the fatigue I'm battling. This is almost as bad as when I had the PIO shots. I simply cannot stay awake. I feel like every time I put my head down - I wake up 2 hours later. Apparently I fell asleep talking to my nanny - SMH! I struggle to concentrate, I struggle to do my work, and I'm feeling like a total failure of a mother because I just don't have the energy to care properly for my little one. I haven't even had the energy to take her to a play date in over 2 weeks! Even picking her up from daycare is becoming a colossal chore. My days are actually filled with dread that my DH might ask me to do something I don't have the energy to. I'm feeling like such a slacker too - which just sucks. I know he wouldn't judge - but I've always tried to pull my weight. Sigh.....
Now onto the eating!
I have to be honest - this is what I feel like - minus the belly. I don't understand it - I'm only 10 weeks - so it's not like I should need a huge caloric intake - but some days the hunger is literally unbearable. I feel like I have to eat hourly not to feel nauseas. It's simply madness. I didn't have this last time - so the idea of eating like this is so foreign. Also - I've lost 5 lb in 2 weeks eating like this - so I'm even more baffled. There's no joy in my eating right now - simply attempts to avoid bad feelings. I don't feel comforted or gratified by my food. I'm just always bleh.....
I know I shouldn't complain but today's my pity party ! Oh and whoever called morning sickness "morning sickness" - clearly has NEVER been pregnant!
