So Frozen Eggs or Do I Try on My Own?

It might be premature for me to be thinking about this - but you can never be too prepared. I am trying to figure out if I should do another frozen cycle to try and have another baby or if I should try on my own. I'm in that wonderful window right after a pregnancy where my fertility seems to have come back on its own. When I tell people that I'm contemplating whether I should use my frozen eggs or try on my own - they tell me it's a no brainer - just try on your own and save some cash. If only it were that simple!

Now I don't have any research to back this up - so please don't judge me for this next piece. I know a lot of cysters. I also know that with PCOS, egg quality is always in question because we have hormonal issues. It's difficult for us to ovulate and even when we do ovulate, there's some question about the quality of eggs that we put out. I see a lot of women doing all sorts of natural remedies , soy, phytoestrogens, progesterone creams, wild yams, etc to try and induce ovulation. I've also been following cysters trying to have kids for several years. And to be honest, it's a little unnerving to see the high number of cysters who are mothers to children with illnesses. The issues range from blindness, cataracts, malformed veins, gastrointestinal issues etc. I know these things happen on both sides but it makes me wonder if our PCOS isn't at play here.

I'm eager to try and have a kid "on my own" but at the same time I'm terrified that doing it on my own doesn't give me a monitored cycle. What if I ovulate but it's a low quality egg that makes it ? What if I had the opportunity to spend a  little cash and get a high quality egg that came off of a monitored cycle? Am I wrong for wanting a manufactured baby? Somehow, having gone the IVF route has desensitized me from that longing to really go all natural. After all - I have a beautiful test tube baby. So I'm sitting here totally confused, unsure of which way we should go. All I know is that I want to have 3 kids and try to do them all back to back so I can get back to my career. I know..... lofty goals for a woman with defective ovaries and an incompetent cervix.

Wordless Middle Finger to Infertility #2

TTC Success - Now What? Oh yeah and the mini-pill made my hair fall out!

First let me apologize - I took a serious hiatus! After battling infertility for as long as I had... I simply wanted to revel in motherhood for a while. Now I'm comfortably 4 months into motherhood and I'm ready to start embracing my fertility battle again.

So I guess it's time for some updates. For starters, my little one is just awesome! She's a feisty little thing, who hates to sleep in the day but sleeps through the entire night!  She's healthy, vibrant and a pleasure to be around.

As for me - well the OB put me on the minipill for contraception. It was fine until I looked in the mirror one day and realized that my hair was falling out from my hairline! It was friggin bald in the front just like the picture to the left!!! I couldn't believe it. I instantly decided to come off the mini pill. DH and I will just take our chances with condoms for contraception.

So while I was lamenting the loss of my hairline - which has started to grow back - something awesome happened. A few weeks after my withdrawal bleed from stopping the mini-pill, I had a period. It was a regular 4 day period!!!!! I'm eagerly waiting to see if I get another period in a month but this is a friggin good sign. I haven't decided if I"ll try to conceive on my own or if I should use my frozen eggs. I hear so much about PCOS women with kids with defects, I can't help but think it's partly due to the out of whack hormones we have. Even though we can drop eggs, I have to question the quality of the eggs that we drop. That being said, I have perfectly good grade A inspected eggs in the bank..... I'm almost leaning towards thinking that it's irresponsible for me not to go with the more monitored approach....

Anyway this is just my post to step back into my blogging!