Friday, November 25, 2011

So Frozen Eggs or Do I Try on My Own?



It might be premature for me to be thinking about this - but you can never be too prepared. I am trying to figure out if I should do another frozen cycle to try and have another baby or if I should try on my own. I'm in that wonderful window right after a pregnancy where my fertility seems to have come back on its own. When I tell people that I'm contemplating whether I should use my frozen eggs or try on my own - they tell me it's a no brainer - just try on your own and save some cash. If only it were that simple!

Now I don't have any research to back this up - so please don't judge me for this next piece. I know a lot of cysters. I also know that with PCOS, egg quality is always in question because we have hormonal issues. It's difficult for us to ovulate and even when we do ovulate, there's some question about the quality of eggs that we put out. I see a lot of women doing all sorts of natural remedies , soy, phytoestrogens, progesterone creams, wild yams, etc to try and induce ovulation. I've also been following cysters trying to have kids for several years. And to be honest, it's a little unnerving to see the high number of cysters who are mothers to children with illnesses. The issues range from blindness, cataracts, malformed veins, gastrointestinal issues etc. I know these things happen on both sides but it makes me wonder if our PCOS isn't at play here.

I'm eager to try and have a kid "on my own" but at the same time I'm terrified that doing it on my own doesn't give me a monitored cycle. What if I ovulate but it's a low quality egg that makes it ? What if I had the opportunity to spend a  little cash and get a high quality egg that came off of a monitored cycle? Am I wrong for wanting a manufactured baby? Somehow, having gone the IVF route has desensitized me from that longing to really go all natural. After all - I have a beautiful test tube baby. So I'm sitting here totally confused, unsure of which way we should go. All I know is that I want to have 3 kids and try to do them all back to back so I can get back to my career. I know..... lofty goals for a woman with defective ovaries and an incompetent cervix.

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