So if I thought fighting infertility was a defining moment in my life.... boy did I underestimate what figuring out where to go next would be! I'm not talking so much about the joys of motherhood and those challenges. I'm more talking about the joy I feel from having a baby but this nagging little anxiety about what I will have to go through with another attempt. Having my daughter has made me decide I want 3 kids and maybe the 4th by adoption. That's fine and dandy but I spent 6 years getting to the point of a viable pregnancy. 3 years after I got diagnosed and came under the care of a RE I finally had a kid. Oh did I mention the $20,000+ we spent having her? Now I want more but the same issues that plagued me are still seemingly lurking in the background. I have all these questions:
- my periods have returned but am I ovulating?
- do I have decent egg quality?
- do I try on my own or do I go for IVF again?
- should I do acupuncture again?
- can I tolerate those PIO shots again?
- will I have to deal with the dribbling endometrium suppositories?
- do I have it in me to do another 100 + days of bed rest
I don't know what the future holds for me regarding this - but I'm past 30 and I'll have to decide soon. My eggs aren't getting any younger!
