So my lochia ended. My dear husband was excited because it was a sign that we might be getting things going in the bedroom again. Needless to say, 5 days later I notice that I start spotting. Then the next day it was a full blown bleed. I'm thinking - what the hell is this? I call my OBGYN and they tell me - your'e having a period!
I know that IVF and pregnancy can jump start your fertility but it never crossed my mind that I might get a cycle on my own. Not only that - but 5 weeks after delivering a baby?? It's a shame that I need to let my body heal because I kind of feel like this is my window of opportunity. Is it greedy to be a woman dealing with infertility, who's had a child recently, and already itching to make another one? Although I'm excited about this cycle, 28 days from now I"m going to be worrying that another cycle might not come. I miss being treated by my reproductive endocrinologist because I always knew exactly what my body was doing. Now I'll go back into that black hole of wondering if my ovaries are playing ball.
I can't believe that I may actually have cycles on my own. I can only hope that an egg came down with that flood of bleeding. I am so eager to find out if I'm finally going to be like a normal woman.
